Welcome to Fumbling Towards Eternity 3.0!
“You know… walking the earth, meeting people, getting into adventures.”
No, I’m nowhere near as cool as Jules Winfield, but I *have* been doing some wandering. Mostly in my head.
I’ve been having… I dunno… an identity crisis or a “what’s the point?” crisis or something like that.
Feeling like something had changed, either in me or in this little community of Constant Readers, and I couldn’t figure it out! Maybe I stopped looking for stories and started writing too many book reviews. Maybe I stopped being authentic and started trying to be the best parts of my favorite bloggers.
What I do know is that I felt pointless and scattered, spread too thin? I wasn’t doing myself any good and I wasn’t blessing any of you. So I stopped writing and started praying – HARD. I need a clear mission: a way for my eye to be healthy (Mt 6:22,23), clearly focused on one thing.
So I looked at the name – Fumbling Towards Eternity has always held a deep resonance for me – the dream I’ve had of ministering as an outpost where spiritual orphans could share stories – and my passion to minister to others from my own wounds. And while I’m not sure I’ve got it all worked out, I think I have a much better idea.
FTE 3.0 is where we will minister to one another, while I fumble closer and closer to growing up as a minister of Jesus Christ. My world isn’t how God wants it, and I want to be part of the solution. I’m not very good at answers, but I seem to be really good at talking my way around problems – I’ll give it all I’ve got.
So FWIW, I’m back, and I’m happy to get to spend a few minutes with you again. Look for some opportunities to talk about the church (did you hear the melodramatic “bom-bom-BOM!” like I imagined?) next week.
in HIS love,