(Psalm 42:1-8 ESV)
“I’m at a point in my life where I realize there has to be something more.”
This sentence, a DREAM for an evangelist, probably sounds really strange coming from a believer in Jesus. But it is true! I’ve enver been greedy or ambitious for power, although my little dissatisfactions with what I have and my frustration with the status quo might bely such blanket statements. Suffice it to say that it isn’t because of oversatiation or disenchantment, this desire for MORE.
I LOVE God!
I LOVE Jesus!
I LOVE God’s Spirit! (That one makes me feel funny to say… maybe we’ll explore that later)
No matter how badly I fail, how I disgust myself with sin, I keep coming back to that three-fold confession. Not as an excuse, not to justify myself, but as this haunting inescapable fact that pulls and gnaws and never lets me alone.
I know there must be more than this pitiful and banal cycle of complacency, sin, and mortification. I want that more, to do more, to be more. But like a teenager with an expensive car I didn’t buy myself, God knows that more will destroy his unprepared and undisciplined child. So I turn to Scripture, to let God train me in godliness. First… to go deeper into this longing… this Augustinian restlessness:
“O God, You have made us only for Yourself, and our hearts are restless until they find their rest in Thee.”
What do you long for?